I think I am herxing (a mini herx at least). I am feeling quite ill today (also lately). I seem to have a herx every time I start or change antibiotics. When I first started my protocol on December 21, 2011 I experienced a big long herx reaction seemingly endless when you’re living it. I don’t know how long my first herx lasted nearly two weeks maybe? The days seemed to run together.
I changed antibiotics one week ago and started feeling so much worse three days in and today I’m not feeling so good!
Yesterday I had an acupuncture appointment. While laying on the heated table I was crying from the extreme pain radiating all throughout my body. My healing could not start until the needles went in. It has been a difficult week with the herxing so at the end of the session I asked my Acupuncturist for a hug and she gave me one. 🙂
Today is a snow day at my University and most other schools in the surrounding towns. Between yesterday and today this is the first genuine, seemingly here to stay, snowfall of this winter. I hear it’s good packing snow.
The trouble is I want my own snow day! I’d love an unplanned day off from class (but not necessarily studying; as it goes in grad school). I’d love to be studying like my friends are now. Participating in the academic world in which I thrive. I am happy and proud of my friends, though I can’t help the feeling that I want that life too. I want it back! I watch from afar as graduate degrees are being pursued wishing I too were among the ranks.
As I watch the snow fall — continues fat flakes ouside my window, I wish my deep aching pain would melt away.
Herxing is a Bitch!
~ H
Sidelined by Lyme 